Friday Poem #129: I Wish That
Hello, and welcome to this week’s Friday poem. I’m typing this on Thursday, moments before England take on Norway in the FIFA Women’s World Cup Quarter-Final. I hope that they will get through to the Semi-Finals, but also know that nothing is certain in the World Cup – and certainly if you are an England team.
Generally, I now only see any Football at such tournaments. Football has a great deal of people who are quick to put it down – the inflated player salaries, the cheating, the spitting, the way players fall down at the slightest touch. I often see meme’s comparing footballers to Rugby players, or soldiers, highlighting the many flaws about ‘the beautiful game’.
Personally, I do think players are paid too much, and there is too much ‘simulation’ going on in Football. Thankfully, it does at present only seem localised in the men’s game. From the games I have seen thus far in the Women’s World Cup, there has been much less of the negative aspects we associate with the men’s game.
What I do see in both the Women’s and Men’s games still are passion, skill and moments of incredible drama that always has me screaming at the television when I watch them. The World Cup is the only time that I can shout “Stamp on their cheating faces!!” in seventeen languages and not feel bad.
Although, I do also do that during the Eurovision song contest.
Anyway, on to this week’s Friday poem. It is another attempt at a new style of poetry for me, and the subject is based on some personal things I have going on at times in my life. I recently heard some poetry that, although incredibly personal to the performer, it struck a chord with me to.
This poem is personal to me, but I know that many people have similar feelings.
Here it is – I hope you like it.
I Wish That
I wish that
I didn’t have to work so hard
To not be fat
I wish that I had more hair
Here, not there
I wish that I wasn’t so insecure
So when it comes to what others think
I really wouldn’t care.
I wish that
I didn’t see myself as a failure
And that I’ll never be all that.
I wish my inner voice wouldn’t tell me it’s a fact
And that despite me trying not to
I’m desperately hoping
That you’ll approve
Because I need you to
But if your appreciation doesn’t filter through
My self belief bleeds into
A river of silence and is washed away.
I wish that
I hadn’t bitten my tongue
As I tried to think of these words
And say them out loud but
They just wouldn’t come
So I bit my tongue
Just for fun perhaps, or maybe
As a warning of punishments yet to come.
I wish that I was as important
As the person in the car behind me Driving home tonight
Who was so desperate to get past
So fast
They clearly had more influence
That needed to be driven up my arse.
I wish that life was easy
But then at times I don’t
Ironically it’s when life is going well
That I leave those thoughts alone.
I wish that I was braver
Or at least a little less scared
I wish that I didn’t face every new thing
Feeling so very unprepared.
I wish that, at times
I didn’t wish that I was someone else.
But I do.
Sometimes.
I wish that.
I wish that.
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I love the repetition
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